Hello everyone! This is my first blog and I want to start this journey by sharing a very important part of my life with you. I was born in a middle class Christian family in Kolkata, India. My mother is an Anglo Indian and my father is a Bengali Christian. Both my parents are staunch Catholics and conservative in nature. Since childhood, I was taught to go to church every sunday, believe in God and pray daily. I was an “ideal daughter” until class 9, when I first realized that there’s something different about me. I was not “normal” as the other kids in school because I wasn’t attracted to boys so much. I fell for a fellow female classmate and began dating her secretively. At that time, I was also a part of my church choir, where I sang religious songs and hymns every Sunday in church during Mass. My choir mates, school friends, seniors, juniors all began to make fun of me and taunt me for being different. The nuns in my church said that I was going to perish in hell because Jesus condemns the homosexuals. I was bullied by everyone. Due to this traumatic experience, I went into depression and broke up with my girlfriend. InΒ 2014, when I got admitted into a reputed college in Kolkata for sociology honours, I realized that there is nothing wrong with me. Sociology broadened my mind, and made me aware about things around me. I started to look at things from a different perspective. The professors in my college were phenomenal. They taught me about how women (also men) suffer due to patriarchy. So many people are sexist, racist, casteist, communal, homophobic in their daily life, without even realizing it. After reading tons of articles and doing my own bit of research, I’ve finally realized that God doesn’t condemn anyone, black, homosexual, dalit, poor, disabled, women are all equal in his eyes. It is the humans who have discriminated against them. Hence, this is why I identity as a “Catholic Feminist” . Although these two may seem apparently contradicting ,Β for me it is overlapping. I proudly practice both.
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